New Instance, New Introduction Thread!

Hi! My name is Anya!

I am a mentally ill, physically disabled, neurodivergent, mess of a trans woman.

It took me 5 hours to write the above three sentences.

“Perfect is the enemy of good” I think it goes.

I’m so scared of getting this introduction “wrong” that I’ve been writing, deleting, and rewriting this thing for almost 6 hours now. Terrified that if it isn’t good enough, people won’t like me.

So, with that being said, I think that’s a pretty good introduction of the “mentally ill” part of me. Trauma, CPTSD, etc. I know.

The “physically disabled” part is a whole ongoing journey of discovery at the moment that was kicked off by multiple covid infections at the start of the (still going) pandemic (you should be masking). A lot of the disabilities I’ve always had, but I didn’t recognise them as such until Long Covid kicked in and ramped them up.

The “neurodivergent” part is AuDHD. This will all become increasingly obvious the longer you follow me, I don’t really need to say more than that.

And the “trans woman” part is...another part that doesn’t really need much explanation, not here anyways, but I guess I should note that I’m a non-binary trans woman.

Anyway, some other things about me:

- I’m a median plural system. There’s more than just me in this head, but we all kind of pilot at the same time (think the way the mechs in Pacific Rim are piloted, but with more than 2). If that’s confusing for you, imagine how it feels for us.

- We are NEET.

- At least one of us is therian.

- We are agere.

Gods this is a miserable fucking read isn’t it? Really selling myself here.

Fuck it...if I keep trying to write and re-write this thing tonight I’m going to fall into a bigger pit of despair than usual. I’mma post this now, and then come back to edit it when my mood has been lifted and I can maybe come up with something that makes me seem interesting.

6 hours 15 minutes.